plans

wanna go home.

*shrugs*

wanna go home

semester break.

initially i didnt plan to go back

firstly, i wanted to go up to KL

secondly, it's just a merely 7-10 days of holidays

months after my plan to KL

i changed my plan

i wanted to stay in johor here

got stuck in UTM with my rice cooker also nvm

by the time i wanted to go home

the airfare was around RM700++ for round trip

then, i didnt manage to go back.

ended up visiting malacca

noW 

i WANNA go home

but

no more holidays.

the only thing i can do is

countdown for Nov 14

i can go back earlier than Nov 14

but i plan to go malacca again >.<

have to go city square for elizabeth's hello kitty

i miss U

lynn, elizabeth, chinmei, kelyn, hungsuai, emyn, zining....

i miss U

wanna see U all right now.

can i

GO HOME NOW????

sorRY

officially back.

was at kukup, the fishing village for two days a night, then malacca also two days and a night.

status: superb tired and lazying. 

sorry,  updates will be very late. if u wan wordless updates, check out the photos on my facebook there from time to time.

sorry

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Devondale

*day 5 after the break up*

ponder: why must i preten to be super duper happy when facing ian while i'm still quite hurt inside? just to let him feel better for breaking up with me? ****! what am i doing?!! he's should be feeling guilty what....

righteousness is in God's hands. u believe? i believe. and i strongly believe it! guess what......









the bitchy backstabber got a fault note from one of the O.E., and that's steve who gave her. boooooohoooooooooOOOO.... she deserves that! not me witchy kay? cause she's far toO bitchy than what i've imagined. she didnt even care about what her supervisor said, didnt even respect him, thought that she's older than him so her supervisor should respect her by all means. WT lar her.... bitchy bitch! always brain wash others also. sien chin....

did stupid and silly mistake again... but didnt void receipt lar... thank God tho... hope this will be the last time for me to get so tension. blurb......

couldnt figure out why ian tergamak to dump me. sien lar... my family always has the table manners. i.e. call the elders to eat before the youngers start eating, wait for the elders to start eating then only the youngers can start eating. and that's what i did when having meals with him. i was the only one among his ex-es who did that. yet he managed to dump me mercilessly. swt...........

guess most of the people at padini knows that i've broke up with him. careless about his bitchy supervisor and colleagues who taught him to break up with me. i mean, the others.
my dinner break time was the same as his. went foodcourt. sat on a same table, but with another colleague in between us. i didnt care when his dinner dropped on the floor. *not that i dont wanna care, just dont know what stand do i have to care, so pretended as if it had nothing got to do with me*

wonder if he's okay or not, he was on full shift for two consecutive days d... hmm......

lack of Ca... backbone aching like nuts ler... i had no choice, went buy Devondale at ta kiong... silly sarah tan... lacking of Ca.... phek chek.... sheeeeEsh......

have been texting my big ko ko for few days d... i kesian my credit... cause he's not in my friends and family list. and once we text, can have more than 30texts per day. ooouccchhhhhHHH.... my credit arRRRRRRR.....

carnival sale!

sale sale sale! today's the first day of the carnival sale. and i got really really terribly vegetably TIRED!!! i was so so so the very tired that i even went to the locker area to stretch my muscles. this was my first time to stretch my muscles. i did mistakes which required me to void receipts. so, imagine that. i'm really TIRED.

hmmm.... the sale is up to 50%.. didnt come across any merchandise with 70% dicount, so i guess the sale is up to 50%. by the end of the day, the sale is quite promising. with a closing of RM32k ++.. hehe...

went MPH before work. reached springie kinda early so walked around.. bought two books. both got to do with christianity. one of them is "purpose driven life". kudos to ravindran! i got 10% discount each.*clap clap* cause ravindran works there, so can get staff price.*evil laugh* this is the first time that i bought books without second thought. some more, it's end of month, my purse is kinda thirsty XD
THANKS ravindran!!!^^

a funny colleague i have. he asked if i'm single not. once i said i'm still single..... guess what did he say...........





"then i have chance lar hor?"



swt.................................-__________-"

even asked if i need a ride when going home. okay, i know he's just kidding. thank God, he's just kidding. although he didnt say that. but, somehow, i just know that he's kidding =p
phew!!!
=====================================
i miss kidsgames lar....... saw jason john and rachel today. made me thought of those fun times during kidsgames. hmmmmmmmm...........=]


as for ian lo....... guess he got his results for the recent paper that he resit-ed for. hope that he did okay for it.... God bless him lor.... still thought of him whole day. WTH! wonder if he still reads my blog. he has my link de... ehee...

kate winslet's "what if" worth try listening. not bad....
......... what if i've never let u go....

that's all for today i guess... nitez all... God bless..

*day 4 after the break up*

familiar faces

*day 3 after the break up*

ponder:
why were me moulded to be a tough, independent and optimistic since i was small? is it that God wants me to prepare me for the break up? hmmm......

sienz... cant sleep late tonight. tomorrow's the first day of the carnival sales. have to wake up early to stand by in case there'll be a big flow of customers tomorrow morning. so.... no dvd tonight. luckily it's still kinda early that i can have some blogging. thank God.... phew!^^
big ko ko back to kl. sent him off through texts. aha~

friends, thanks for the concern. *u know who u are* i'm okay d... no more low mood, no more tears, no more silly and stupid thoughts. except for the fact that i still love him.*fainting? not worth it right? i know that... paiseh... ehee...*

aha~ what to post.... hmm....
oyea.. saw friends. lots and lotsa friends shopped at padini these days. today i saw marie and marilyn the twins with lily.. and mr ng also... days before i saw lotsa long-didnt-see people.=D
saw mr leong with his wife and and and his SON! teeheehee... people from 5S3'05 of SMK Kuching High, remember him? mr leong arrr... ah leong arrr... leong sy jian arr... hehe... he has a son d looOO... bt one or two years old like that. very cute, very clever de ei... hehe...
then i saw the pretty PA teacher of U6S2'07. she remembers me ei... miracle... i wasnt taught by her, but i did greet her when i met her around at school. hehe...
then i saw ms voon also... never know that she still remember me toO... same thing, i wasnt taught by her. only talked to her before during the 2006's merdeka thingy and greeted her when saw her at school.
mdm orlnda also lor... aha~ guess what did she say about the new batch of lower sixers? hehehehe.....+evil laugh+ 'they looked blurrrr...' that's what she told me.:rofl:
and bla bla bla.... lotsa ppl lar... it's a torment to have sarah tan cracks her brain for all these kay? hiak hiakz....






sarah tan is stupid. she still cares for whatever things that gotto do with ian lo.
this evening after my dinner break with ah feng, a quite good looking guy, i overheard a short conversation between andrew and him. andrew told ah feng that ian will be going home around 730pm. cause overtime. they have lotsa things to do and prepare for tomorrow. after then i was thinking of him for quite a long time until he punched out around eight oclock. if back then, i'd tell him to rest more, drink more water and take good care of himself before he went off. and now.... i said nothing. i cant say anything. i dont have the stand to say all these either. can only worry him without his acknowledgement. maybe... will remember him in my prayer at times.-_-"


i like the song 'cant stop a river'. especially the lyrics. a sentence or two before the song ends is nice.
........... cant stop a river from flowing to a sea.. cant stop my heart from loving you....
aha~

gotta stop here. tata... nitey nitez all... everyone in this wonderful world!!
God bless....^_-

cry on my shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

-cry on my shoulder


came across this song moments ago.
searched the lyrics at tat instant
a touching song.
in the end,
i got moody again.

promises...
so far...i never break any
but
do i deserve to be treated so?
promises made but broken.........................

it's 12.10pm...
you're at normah right now.
texted u for a lunch but u said u cant
wanna ask why u're there.
but i hav no courage to reply and ask
which of ur family member is being charged?
i wanna know
i wanna ask
i juz wanna care
but....
i dont have the courage to do so
i know
i'm lame
okay,i'm lame
throughout these days
whenever i thought of texting u
i need courages
i NEED courages
i dont really dare to text
i'm such a COWARD!!!!
lunch?
no mood for it.
skipping it.


panda getting moody again

rainy day

bamboo:
end of february....anather end of the month agAIN...haiz...time really flies...without notice..=(


rainy afternoon:
hmm...it rains AGAIN...*sigh* with thunder some more.. :s
let's see..what am i doing now..it's 3:35pm rite now.i'm hanging with my shuffle while blogging.=D
well...there're lotsa OLD songs in it.[okay..i'm living in the '80s.fine with u?lol..] errrR...the songs are not OLD like what also..juz sorta bit out dated like that ler...feelings got mixed up when it comes to certain songs.yeah,CERTAIN.well..it does not neccesary have to be love songs.now,let me see how to get it conveyed clearer to you people.hmm....*figuring figuring* eeeee.....
okay,it started this way--i always had my shuffle with me whenever i went to libraries for revision before and during the period of STPM.so...certain songs made me think of the scene when i was doin revision in the libraries while zookeeper was in front of me.[zookeeper,still remember those days?lol...XD] i do miss those days....

picture on the right--->
it reads: waiting is also a kind of happiness. *translated for those who dont know how to read chinese.aha..treat me a drink.winks*
hmm...well..i kinda like tis picture.i have it on myProfile as primary photo tim..hehe....
zookeeper zookeeper..
remember this and keep it in ur mind till i tell u tat i've gave up on u kay?XD teeheehee...
the song 'Cry on my shoulder' is playing right now.a worth-to-listen song.
thanx to MrYap.cause i came across this song from his friendster's profile.[clap clap..]


sugar cane:
hmm....it's still raining..finished nonsense d it still rains..haiz....tsktsktsk...
nice day all..^^

you took my heart away

bamboo:
a tiring day.super tiring.panda's tired for everything..anything.far far far far tooOO tired than wat u all can imagine.12hours of working EVERY weekdays.eventhough i dont waste much of my energy,i still feel the tiredness.i'm perfectly POOPED!!dozed off a bit in the morninG.a bit nia..it's not comfortable to dozed off on the chair.called up the tuition centre,telling them me not goin for tuition.worn out d...giving up on certain thing.[started..] not worth it to earn alot but sacrificed my health.totally..NOT worth it.so...not continue to teach next month.who cares what financial problems might pop up..i DONT care...no more a k per mth tiu no more lor...who cares!!


You Took My Heart Away:
Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

Chorus:
You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
you are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

Chorus:
You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone


sugar cane:
dunno what to crap about.so...shared a song with u all..hope u'll like it.not bad right?teeheehee...
panda is missing her zookeeper like nuts agAIN... *sigh*
nice day to ya all....^^

Love is not all around

bamboo:
rainy morninG agaiN..
didnt feel like to get out of my bathroom when having my shower this morninG..cold weather and hot water worH..why so stupid to get out of the bathroom worh...of course soak myself in the hot shower at a longer time lar..buT..haiz..things always somehow juz go the other way with what we are thinking.couldnt soak self in hot shower longer cuz hav to get prepared for work.zzzzzZZZzzzzzzzz..hatred...


Love is not all around:
actually.....the title "love is not all around" is a movie's title.juz quoted it.starring Alex fong,Hins cheung,Sammy and dunno who.*hah* nice movie..watched it sunday nite d de...last nite it repeated again*u know lar...astro....heh* though i watched before,i still watched it again last nite.11.30pm till 1am. *crazie gal heh?* but it's truly nice wat...some part really earned my tears lor..but i didnt shed my tears..i did hold it back!!hehe...
well...i'm lazy for a synopsis.if u wanna know what does it all about,go watch it urself.
and because of tis movie...Hins Cheung is my new lover!! *wakakaka..* he's really.......undescribable.more than cute and engtau lor...hee!
hmm...after watching tis movie.....erm uhm.....i learned a new word---C.H.E.R.I.S.H.
yeah,CHERISH.so.............cherish everyone besides u.including those who love u but u dont love.and also...whatever u saw and whatever u heard,might not be the truth*watch and u'll know what i mean*


sugar cane:
thinking of teaching in schools.cuz zookeeper also taught in primary school,but he's no longer there nemore.when i knew where he taught,i purposely turned a big round to my office juz to pass through that school after dropping my brother at dad's shop.only by seeing his car i'd be satisfied also..then i'd passed by the library.where i had all those nice memories with him there.
wanna tell him that..
i MISS him alot..
pass the message to him please...for those who know who's zookeeper and also a fren of his.
i really MISS him...T.T

missing u too hard tat i....

bamboo:
*clap clap* finally received my salary last saturday.wheeeeEheeE...*praise the Lord praise the Lord*gave mum RM200,own pocket money RM100,angpau for mum RM50,grandma RM100.eeeyooohooooOOo...super duper happy.
hmm...cny's about three more days to go.seriously lar....no cny mood wor...*frowning -_-"* dunno why lar.....haiz..........the only thing i'm excited about is can wear new clothes nia..wat to do?wat to do?anyone??make me celebrate this cny happily eh...sien sien...really dunno how arR...=(



missing U too hard that i................*really malu nak cakap*
went breakfast with mum yesterday morning.loooOOnG didnt have breakfast with her eversince i started working.went to BDC there,she said there's a kopitiam with lotsa nice food.name of the kopitiam-->'jia jia'.ouh well...when we reached........x_X people mountain people sea..fine...
we were so lucky tat we managed to get a seat.hawkers were busying.none was able to catch any snake.wanna eat beehoon,so mum ordered two bowls of beehoon kosong and one bowl of 'jeng' one. *read in hokkien,the bowl of soup with all sorts of food--meat and fish balls,vege,prawns and etc de*.we waited for........................about AN hour then only we can have our breakfast.well well...worth it worth it...nice food.hehe..but i only managed to finish HALF bowl of tat beehoon.x_X
head super duper itchy while eating that it turned left and right to look around.
da danGGGG....saw a guy,with specs.*heartbeat accelerating* cuz i tot he was...zookeeper!!!side view of tat guy really looks alike with zookeeper ler....i really tot he was zookeeper..wanted to text him de liao....x_x x_x...looked carefully again...diff specs.whooOsh...the specs kaki of zookeeper's are white,while tat guy's are black.luckily i dont have heart attack............-_-" real sia soi....eventhough i didnt text zookeeper and fool him..memang malu nak cakap ler...@_@"
i'm really a little..out of mind.*malu malu* XD




sugar cane:
memang keksi ki...
open house on the 2nd day of cny.texted mr yap,asked him to drop by if he didnt have anything for lunch on that day.last year,he came over and i misused him for some purpose eventhough my main purpose was to see him.this year..invited him as a friend.i was like 'grrrr...' towards his reply.he said he wont be free on day 2,wat about day 3.OMGGGGGGGGGGG!!!me day 2 open house nia..where got day 3 again de??impozble want my mum to purposely cook for him alone nia mer...wat more to say he's not my guy??wont even get my mum to cook for my guy alone if he didnt come over when i have open house arrr...chek ak lar tat seh kia...day 3 me probably out with classmates oso mer....mr yap o mr yap..muka memang besar sangat budak ni...asked him to chiak ka ki on day 3. *evil laugh*
really kektio...

parallel lines

bamboo:
super busy these two days in the office.busy dealing with all the boards i owed to technicians all over sarawak.wat the heck!
*frowning* juz viewed mr yap's profile.sad sad?well..i shouldnt be doing so.yet,i did it.cant control mer..i dunno why,juz feel like...uhm...........*sigh* didnt know how to describe also.should dump him far far into the 'recycle bin'(of my mind) and empty it.see how..trying hard anyway.can make it??lotsa gals in his school crush him..dunno how many innocent gals gonna being killed by him looOO...


Thanx zookeeper..
thanx for making it last saturday.so..
uhm..he finally claimed the tee shirt from me.cuz his school had extra class.
err...quite a nice shirt,not bad..from hush puppies.something like got offer tat day.his was best buy de..RM**.** (mahal mahal..ok ok la..not really also),M size,blue colour.he said he likes blue..but would prefer the other colour de..nicer the design..all the while i met him in libraries,so far neva saw him in blue tee,so bought him a blue then.
juz a short meet up.only passed him the tee.it's lunch time oso,dun dare to 'detain' him for long so tat he can have his lunch.
zookeeper..
take care yea..


Parallel lines..
sure everyone knows wat's parallel lines rite?
hmm...tat day sunday..when having cleaning up,i curi tulang for a while,on my discman and listened to songs(someone get a cane plz..).came across jin sha's 'parallel lines'.guess wat.......i cried!tissue please tissue please..QUICK!erm..cuz of the lyrics and i thought of zookeeper and mr yap at tat instant.
we are all juz like standing on parallel lines.we can see each other..but!we'll never met each other face to face.there's no intersection point.we'll keep walking walking and walking..without the intersection point...sad?sad?


sugar cane:
before i post it..
ehee..kelyn,sorry for waiting for my updates,u know lar..super busy these two days mar..hehe...
nice day all!^^

Emo..???

A week ++ more there comes 08's cny..

feel like to go far far away from kuchinG
perhaps hide to dunno where
wanna go zookeeper's huz..

my yap said tat i can moved to his huz before..
guess he's forgotten
but
nevermind
i wont care nemore oso

zookeeper owing me a meal
he promised to bring me out for dinner during my burfdae
he broke it
he broke the promise!!

bought a tee for zookeeper
from hush puppies
as a christmas gift
but he din want to have a meet up
so
it's still in my car

miss zookeeper a lot lerh..
long din text with him looOO..
din dare to text him oso..

see??
me 19th dy
end of year
here comes 20th.
hav no more time to find a new target liao
if zookeeper really tat...
'kejam'
perhaps
he'd be my last lover
yeah
LAST
no more after him looOO..

i dont have any two o three years to spend on anather guy...

after zookeeper..
my life ends there
i mean...
me going to be single...

zookeeper..............................................
where are U?

-p a n d a

ZookeePer...

Tis is for the one and only zookeeper...

zookeeper:
panda couldnt live its days happily without zookeeper...
panda misses zookeeper...
panda needs zookeeper alot...
panda feels super insecure without zookeeper...
u know panda will be very sad when u're away...
"zookeeper's to-do list:
=) drink more water
=) take gud care of urself
=) rest more
=) be a happy baby everyday
=) oink oink earlier...
then panda will be super happie..^^ "
tis is the text..which panda sent to u today...
text u yesterday..reminding u about ur christmas pressie...
u replied tis morning..around 6sth..
u said tat u didnt reply yesterday because u were in a low mood..
zookeeper,panda's heart painNNN when u said u were in a low mood...
panda wans zookeeper to be happy everyday..
panda will be super sad if zookeeper is low wor...T_T
dont leave panda alone can????
From,
panda..

*was called panda because of my two black eyes...*

call...phone call

went shopping yesterday.
chinese new year's around the corner,yet i havent bought any new clothes,so went out yesterday with kelyn and elizabeth.
went boutiques somewhere the 3rd mle's highway there.then picked up elizabeth and off we went to Runway,hocklee and boulevard.Didnt dare to go The Spring..jammed like nuts..
around 5pm,we were done at boulevard..
mmm...not so bad..bought some nice outfit.3pcs=RM110.not so expensive right?ahahaaa...
time for dinner after we were done at boulevard.
the three of us were like wat..."ah niu chu cheng ji".
elizabeth suggested food avenue..
but none of us know how to go..like tat lo...almost sesat at fourth mile there liao...
then remembered YLM went there before.texting super makan masa..so...
called him.oooo....i CALLED him!!!tat's amaaaaaAAzing..
mmmmmmmm....
i guess i did lag alil..
after the call....my body softened..trembling..heart 'accelerating'...
worst still,i was the one to drive!!uhu...

never dreamt tat i would hav a chance to call him...^^
yeah,super duper happie..=D
cuz for about three weeks we didnt text liao...T_T
so..very happie when i managed to call..eventho it's oni about sth very..remeh temeh..hehe..^^

gathering tonight..at shiloh..aha!dun have to waste petrol to drive to somewhere far far..hiakz...
cuz it's juz a few shoplots next to my office nia nia mer...
hahaaa...