God bless you

*day 15 after the break up*


gone were those days
and these days
i have thought a lot
learned a lot as well
through the book "why, God" especially

i have learned to surrender
everything in God's hand
and this is what i have been learning
since i'm back to God's arm years ago.

found my appetite, my joy
and whatever i've lost back in few days ago.

maybe whatever i faced
was in God's plan
perhaps He wants me to learn something from it.
and i know
He spoke to me through some friends.
and i appreciate them alot.

i've thought through
and now...
i'm Single, Available but never Desperate.

SMILE....^^


*YLM's grandpa passed away, few days ago was the 49th day. so sad... may God bless him and his family.*

God is my refuge

*day 6 after the break up*

finally i know the main reason of why ian could break with me mercilessly. and it's simply because he failed to 'zo diao' me. *read in hokkien*
what the heck! if for that reason he dumped me, i dont mind he just tell me frankly. but NOT finding bones in an egg!!!*a mandarin saying* beated around the bush and found himself lotsa unreasonable excuses to break with me. WTH lar him....
and now... i got really really angry. no one will ever know how angry am i. he's now fishing a girl from miniature corner. guess she's no longer virgin also. i told my Lord, "since he likes to 'zo diao' his gurls so much, then he MUST marry the girl after me by hook or by crook. no matter how bitchy is that girl, he has to marry her by all means. cause he made her pregnanted."
that's what i told my Lord.
people, i didnt want to curse him. but he really got me super duper angry. picked on all my faults silly-ly and unreasonably. those excuses are not excuses! i can tell God that i treated him whole heartedly. although sometimes i disturbed him by praising how handsome is ah feng. and i was just kidding. man, i treated him whole heartedly! i find myself no mistakes! SHYT........ my backup is not any black traid or what but the Almighty Lord God! God is always watching what he had done and said to me. i believe righteousness is in the hand of God. think, before messing up with my Lord the almighty ones.

ehren and irena said i'm alim. okay, i admit. i'm alim. remember the ten commandments from Lord? one of them is "Do not commit adultery".

so guys out there, think twice before planning to get me. not that i'm playing hard-to-get. just that i'm alim.

i am ALIM.

i am ALIM.

i am ALIM.

i am ALIM.

sarah tan is ALIM!!!!!!!

actually it's fine with me if he told me that he wanted to break with me cause he failed to 'zo diao' me. true! it's fine.. what i need is a simple truth. NOT lies. dont tell me that i'm this and that when even those who've been my friends for years dont feel that i'm like that. WTH!!!!!!!!!!

it's day 6. i'm without appetite for proper meals these days. whenever i see food, i feel like vomiting. guess what i had today... a plate of fried mee by my mum and a glass of milk as breakfast. lunch time no appetite. saw lily and marie, then ate a cone at desserts. ONLY a cone. dinner break ate NOTHING. God...... i've really lost my appetite. i see food, i thought of ian messing up with his gurls. i feel nauseatic. near to vomiting d. so i'd just turn my head away and headed off from foodcourt. rather walk around springie. thank God i didnt get gastric pain tho...^^ i got sth like aneroxia i guess. SHYT......

dating

bamboo:
eboon sick.zzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZzzzz...ended up had a quite err uhm quite dont-know-what-to-do morning.suddenly had a walk-in decoder which required me to service it on the spot mer..so....miserable.whooOsh...thank God,didnt get scolded by the customer for they'd waited for about an hour.

dating:
dating at springie last saturday after worked.switched to sushi king after had our drink at the stupid food court.my date mate...................................................*oi!come back!dont think till very far kay?* my date mate is actly..................a................GURL.haha.....one of my buddies lai de..we should be going out on the 8th,but she had chicken pox,so postponed our date.teeheehee.....
we had a lonG and nice chat.yeah,lonG.
we chatted everything and people around us.after around half an hour at the food court,we went to sushi king. *well...sushi king wasnt in our plan.we just went there without second hesitation.hehe...XD* around 2sth we went sushi king,then we were off from there around 4pm. *thought springie collecting parking fee mer..=p* then went to her house.sat at her place chatted agAIN till 5sth when her mum's back i baru went home.cause didnt want to leave her alone in her house mer..^^
this gurl...haha....she has a super nice guy liao..i'm very happy for her.it's true,very happy.
they started on her 20th burfdae.sweet isnt it?hehe...
her guy is a very nice guy.hence,i'm very happy for her.

friends around me mostly not single anymore.those singles...are countable.haha...
hmm hmm...
i'm S.A.D. haha...
S.A.D. as in 'single,available but Not desperate'. lol....
these thingy...i'm not very....err dunno how to say. just..depends.i'm sure Lord has prepared one for me.so i'm not desperate for it.
MrYap,u're wrong for one thing.hehe...
he said one tend to feel lonely when seeing couples around.*can i oppose it?*lol...
i dont feel the loneliness tho..*last time maybe i'll feel so,but not now d..* i feel happy for them instead.haha...

sugar cane:
'lok lok' seems to get very emo these days.i dont know why...*the stupid nick wasnt from me*
his blog's posts sound very emo.perhaps he really got hurt. *his blog link is on my links there,guess urself if wanna know which one is his,cant really tell u ppl who he is,cause he's kinda eminent among thomians and highians*
may God bless him.and and and not to forget also my readers.haha...

TIME!!!
i need more and more and more time!!!
to forget...to let go...

p/s:U6S3'07 of st thomas,gathering anyone?

you took my heart away

bamboo:
a tiring day.super tiring.panda's tired for everything..anything.far far far far tooOO tired than wat u all can imagine.12hours of working EVERY weekdays.eventhough i dont waste much of my energy,i still feel the tiredness.i'm perfectly POOPED!!dozed off a bit in the morninG.a bit nia..it's not comfortable to dozed off on the chair.called up the tuition centre,telling them me not goin for tuition.worn out d...giving up on certain thing.[started..] not worth it to earn alot but sacrificed my health.totally..NOT worth it.so...not continue to teach next month.who cares what financial problems might pop up..i DONT care...no more a k per mth tiu no more lor...who cares!!


You Took My Heart Away:
Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

Chorus:
You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
you are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

Chorus:
You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone


sugar cane:
dunno what to crap about.so...shared a song with u all..hope u'll like it.not bad right?teeheehee...
panda is missing her zookeeper like nuts agAIN... *sigh*
nice day to ya all....^^

thought through

bamboo:
finally..back to working place AGAIN.four days' holidays..juz passed like tat.yeah,juz like tat.without anything special.except for wearing all the nice clothes.wat's so special about CNY?cant figure it out.mood didnt turn to better wat...


thought through:
went to lotsa ppl's huz for visiting.not frenz's,not relatives',but mum's frenz'.went out everyday wit mum.met lotsa engtau kiaS.mum's frenz' sons.but but but...see see nia..no action and biological reaction. *laugh out*
mum's frenz are funny..mostly..once they saw me *those didnt see me for a lonG time*, would definately say "whoa...getting prettier worh..." *clap clap* then i was like "uh oh okay..hehe.." next question was "got boyfriend boi?" then i'd answered "huh?*really shocked,okie?* har?no la..heheeee..." blurb...sweat long long..*ponder..me really getting prettier meh?zzzZZzzzz...*
a SPM leaver asked to go his house on day3.go solo,me sure paiseh.if wanna go with friends,dunno go with who.cuz i dunno which of my friends know him.remembered that mr yap knows his brother.so asked if mr yap wanna go not.but he had his students over his place by that time.didnt reply*i mean me*.8sth at nite,he texted again,calling me 'honey'.*heart sank* cuz i know,he didnt take it seriously.asked if he texted wrong gal not,but he said it's for me,no mistake. *heart sank to the deepest*
mr yap,
neva call me 'honey' o whateva if u never mean it.
never call me 'honey' if u didnt think of to be responsible after it.
think twice before calling me 'honey'.
i'm in the process of letting go off u.dont give me anymore hope.simply an ordinary gurl here.cant bear much hurts.juz an ordinary gurl...
if gurl said she's giving up.she'll never turn back.gurls are different with guys in dealing these thingy.u may want the gurl u rejected back cuz of loneliness but i wont want the guy who rejected me back even if i'm lonely once i've gave up.since i've thought it through,i'll never turn back to u though zookeeper doesnt want me.i dunno what makes u called me 'honey' but juz a piece of advice here--never simply call a gurl 'honey' o whateva if u didnt want to take it seriously or be responsible after it.juz like what i texted u.u're dead if that gurl take it seriously.luck for u cuz i have thought it through that u're not serious and i didnt take it seriuosly as well.*clap clap*


sugar cane:
dress code during CNY:
reunion dinner--a bare back dress *guys,dont throw slippers,cuz ur monitor will be the one to kena*
day one--kinda formal a little.dress as well *hehe....*
day two--tiub with skirt.*sexy??i dunno..left it to u ppl to judge.ask those who came to my house on day2 if u wanna know.loz....*
day three--trendy a little,looks guai guai de.. *clap clap*
day four--sleeveless top and skirt *huhu...no more guai kia liao..=( haha..*

wanna see pictures?hmmm....depends on the demand then.drop me a comment if u wanna see pictures.if the demand is high,then only i'll post them. ;D