well..
before.........



and....















AFTER!



hahahahaha....

yup,i've cut my hair. teeheehee...
hair is in critical condition after some curlings and straightening. so,decided to cut it short. lolx...
will have it shorter than now when i'm back here again around may ^^
NICE? hehe...
i like it! blek =P



a senior said the new hair cut makes me look different. blurb.... who cares. wahahahahaha



p.s. leg is getting much much much better. can walk like a normal person and faster. kudos! thank God!^^

CNY

economy recessions? dont think so...blek..
to all my readers, happy CNY! and those married,and planning to get married, red packets please........... ROFL..

first ER's meeting

aaaa.... ER for external relation. well,this is referring to aiesec. hehe...
had the first meeting with ER-ians last friday,the day before i came back here.
after the meeting, was kinda clear a BIT about what should an ER-ian do. hee..
before the agenda started, we had an ice breaking game. we didnt have that bloody boring introducing-urself session as what normally any gathering will have. doria,the director had us to think of one question that u would wanna ask anyone in ER,and then fold the question and put in a box. then we had 'lucky draw'.
my question was "favourite colour". the question i got was "do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? how many years already?" ROFL.
and my answer was "i AM single."
everyone oohed on that. suddenly ke xin, the director of comm said "wait,are u available or not available?"
"UNAVAILABLE" i announced. everyone oohed again on that -_______-"
and so, i officially announced that i'm unavailable. blurb.

ER is fun. whereby i can get to meet ppl out there. like manager or PIC(person-in-charge) of a certain company to sell aiesec's projects to them in exchange of cash or materials.
aha~ i like that. can help brush up all my communication skills for the future. kudos. woo hooo....^^

sienz

best laughter of the year-

M: mind a ques?
H: wat? faster ask. i'll oni ans if i wan. wat?
M: ermm are u... single? and available?
H: i might be gan ga if i were young, but now no more. yea, single. u see me suku suku u'l know la.. u?
M: ooo... me? single. unavailable to all but... u. if it's okay. ROFL..
H: aiyo... u're like my sis la.. u can be my sis liao... sagittarius and aquarius can be good partner, good frens. like me and my sis.



M for Malaysian. H for hospitality. MH-malaysian hospitality. MAS' code.

LAUGH OUT LOUD.

******

so yea, i'm back in kuching.
i hate all those things these few days.
everyone is treating me as though i'm a real OKU *&&^%%$#

mum insisted on an x-ray. but i won by saying if the bones breaks, i wont be walking so fantastically all these while.
route to anywhere is restricted. "u CANNOT go the spring. see ur leg, still walk la.." **&^%$##@
doesnt allow me to carry my lappie on my own.
mum even thought of getting a walking stick.
hey hey hey... i ONLY sprained my leg! not INCAPABLE! still can walk!
i know.. u all are just caring about me and those effects-to-be when i'm old. but please... *sigh*

superb bloody dunno-how-to-describe with those dos and donts.

p.s. my leg is really getting better for God's sake.


received a shocking news on sunday. i wonder how.. but the news that i sprained my leg actly spreaded form utm to uthm, skudai to batu pahat when i hardly get connected with those studying at UTHM *shrugs*
forwarded a cny text to zookeeper. and guess wat... he said that he heard sth happened to me and asked if i was okay. bloody shocked. jaw dropped. then i asked for further details. he said that he heard ah suai said i fell badly and was sent back to kuching.
OMG! i was sent back to kuching PURPOSELY jusst because i fell down badly???!!! *ROLL ON FLOOR LAUGHING!*
well, i'm back in kuching due to the early flight i booked for CNY, NOT because i fell down badly.
i seriously wonder how did the news spread and obviously it's been added with vinegar and oil ? I WAS BEING SENT BACK TO KUCHING CAUSE I FEEL BADLY -________________-“ this is bloody shocking. ROFL

anyway, not meaning to blame, but THANX for the concern ^^


I Q-ed a book of 500pgs in two days. Woo woot.. a tear-earning one. And this is no other than ‘P.S. I love you’. Man,this is great! Huhu… no 1 international best seller. Should get urself a piece if u don’t have. LOL..

side effect

some updates after the marketing challenge.

i found myself speaking english at most of the time. there's a night when i had my TITAS group discussion. the group members were either speaking mandarin between chiyung and weichuan o malay to the two malay gurls. and me...... well, i spoke mandarin to chiyung and weichuan, but it's impozble to speak mandarin to the two malay gurls. my malay sucks. real cacat. i'd no choice but conversed in english when giving my opinion. the four looked at me as if i was alienated, where the fact that i wasnt. *sigh*
and with those seniors, i'l mix mandarin with english.

alien? am i?? *shrugs*

obviously i found myself at ease with english, cause i'll be like "aaa... ini... itu.... aaa... macam mana... aaaa...." when speaking malay. my malay is real SUCKS. *sighhhhhhh*

home again

was superb happy this morning. in and out from class with a big, broad smile. course mate said i dont have to be that happy eventhough i'm back moro. well... God knows i'm happy not because of that. haha....

home again on moro. didnt feel like to go back on moro. wanna go back alil later. for some reasons. sobz........... it'll be a long weeks for me in kuching. sigh

appointment if wanna yamcha.
bringing home stacks of assignments home. test 1 on the 5th of feb,the very next day after i'm back to johor. sienz.......
looking forward to campus' life after cny. my last chance. gambateh ne,sarah chan.

happy!^^

i'm happy eventhough i have this--



obviously,it swells.

well.. and the story went like this -> sprained it seriously where i actually HEARD a loud "crack" when spraining it T.T it hurts a lot but wasnt to the stage that it caused me to cry. well... hehe... sprained it on tuesday,when doing survey. "well, the first survey of my life, i was too high, so i sprained it." that's wat i told those who asked about my leg.

actually... i sprained it when running down a slope to my check point..

after went for chinese doctor at taman uni instead of the campus' clinic, i had a short nap. and well.. here goes the deadly part. my leg was real pain that i actually cried. well well... it's superb painful on that day okay? *sigh*

wonder why am i happy eventhough i sprained it seriously? huhu...
gained something real precious cause of my sprained leg. hehe... *shhhhhhhh...* ^^
should thank God for that.

and to those out there, dont worry much about my leg anymore, i can walk faster than last few days already. daijoubu des.. dont worry dont worry, tho it's still swelling ^^

and yea,basically that's me, spraining own's legs in a week's time. hahahahaha...

aiesec

went up to balai cerapan again yesterday evening. jogged when there's a slope.. and so....... leg's kinda worsen. no way to deal with it except rubbing it with oil and use plaster. engineering run on next friday, pray hard for me so that i'm able to run ey?x_x

quite a busy day. and tiring. aiesec hold a marketing challenge. supposed to be on last sat,but due to some problems,it was postponed to today. *shrugs*
quite fun, learned a lot.
details.. next time. library's chasing ppl off...
tata..

again?

tagged. it's been a long time since i was last tagged. since i have no lectures today, so.. kelyn,here's the tag ^^

1. write ten things about the person who tagged you.
2. write ten things about yourself.
3. find ten person u wanna tag.

10 things about kelyn.
a. she wanna slim down a lot. Gambateh ne!
b. she has pretty handwriting.
c. worked with me in a same company before =P
d. loves shopping.
e. loves hong kong series
f. studying accounting in MMU
g. loves her buddies
h. fighting hard for first class. God bless u!^^
i. can dress herself well
j. has long nice hair ^^


10 things about myself.
a. unavailable XD
b. praying hard for first class
c. love to get everything out of my chest on blog *which makes my blog posts kinda messy x_x*
d. love hanging out with friends in kuching.
e. love my fat cat a lot. *wonder how can i go through those days when it's not around. blurb*
f. desire God's words and need to be strengthen more
g. love mum's dishes but under mum's control x_x
h. love shopping
i. addicted to jogging
j. love challenges =P


10 person i wanna tag. *to make this funny,i decided not to stop tagging. hiakz*
a. tzehu|
b. phillip
c. chuan
d. Mr Yap
e. lyn
f. engtau mike
g. ojibala *dont care i cant see it*
h. yinkit
i. wuilee
j. emyn

*STRICTLY NOT ALLOWED TO REJECT O IGNORE. MUST DO IT!!*

happy tagging!

desperate for balai cerapan

*HAPPY MODE*^^

seniors and course mates saw an OKU yesterday when having meals at cengal. and tat OKU is no other than me. blurb...
whoever saw me walked like an OKU asked what's up with me, and i'd just answered them "no choice la.. was too high that i didnt watch out for the uneven pathway" i'm very honest de.. hiak hiakz..

thought my leg had recovered yesterday evening after dinner. RAN back to hostel from ukit after a short chat with teckshin and weiwui as i was running out of time for caregroup. well,i THOUGHT my leg was okay, so i RAN. who knows... this morning when i woke up, i'm an OKU again...T_______________________T
God heal me! i wanna go balai cerapan later in the evening ler..5555555555

oya,i'm still on diet these days... and yesterday morning suddenly didnt feel like eating anything, when i saw those bread on my bookshelf,i feel like vomiting,and hence i didnt take my breakfast.. suspecting.... anorexia! blurb
this morning... i ate those buns just because i scare those buns will turn bad as it's expiry date is yesterday. *sigh*

next week onwards, i'll be pretty busy.
mon nite- german 1, 8pm-10pm
tue nite- prs meeting if necessary
wed- coQ 230pm-430pm, aiesec gathering 5pm-7pm *if there's any*
thu nite - church care group/volunteer at orphanage
fri nite - free!!!! + balai cerapan in the evening
sat - jusco day! woo woot
sun - church service + balai cerapan in the evening.

aha~ busy?
yea,pretty busy..
hehe.....

appreciate me!x_x

20 and a month! wat a day...

yea,u all should appreciate me. sprained my leg and still 'berkobar-kobar' to walk to library here for blogging. sigh...
and this time is kinda serious. normally my leg will be okay after a while. but now.... OKU again. #*&^%$@%
no one to be blamed but myself. was on cloud nine when walking back to hostel that i didnt watch out for the uneven road. *sigh sigh*
lectures resume at 2pm.

moro no lectures!!! woo woot... thanx to differential equation's lecturer who's on a vacation that i'm here in library at this moment and moro having no class. hahaks!

wondering why i'm on cloud nine??? hmm... well well, definately not because of moro's free day but because..... *clear throat clear throat* unable to unveil the truth now. scare the whole faculty of civil engineering will know about that. paiseh lar.... only reader's of secretivepanda will know about it. hehehehehehe XD

wish my leg would recover tonight o tomorrow's morning. must MUST! cause wanna go balai cerapan moro's evening if there's no aiesec meeting. *sobz*

aha~ talking about aiesec... was allocated at the ER team [ER-external relation] whereby we have to sell aiesec to companies for internships. hehe.. great chance for me to brush up all my skills like negotiation and etc. woohoooooo... also, yesterday's meeting ended kinda earlier as told. so managed to see ......*clear throat* teeheehee...

HAPPY ^^

TARGETTED =P

collission

had my head collided with the cupboard which is next to my bed when sleeping last night. and the story went like this.........
half way sleeping i found my lil yellow at nowhere. thinking that it dropped on the floor so i woke up blur-blurly to search for it.. who knows.... once i got up... a loud "bang" i heard.. the pain was on my head. aaarrrrrggggghhhHHH... then only i found out that my lil yellow was actually next to me only...x_________x

p/s: my lil yellow is my tweety head which i smuggled it from my house XD
*****

something nice about local uni, where we have to stay inside campus, then you'll find.... all the guys,ranging from first year to final year or master year, chinese or malays, everyone will wash their clothes by themselves. whenever i passed by guys block by bus, can see that their clothes are all hanging and hoping hard for sunshine. hehehe... some more... every monday here in UTM everyone will be in their formal wear. some with ties on. aha~ it's nice to see all the guys in their formal wear, they're all smart. lolz...


busy again... aiesec meeting after my coQ later in the afternoon..x_x 5pm till 7pm. dead me! ending around 7pm is not tollerable for my stomach. if i dont take my dinner around 6pm, i'll have nice band/orchestra in my stomach =S
230pm-430pm -> coQ
500pm-700pm -> aiesec

dating? where got time.... haiz...=P




more pictures upcoming on this friday afternoon. stay tuned!!^^

active

ahem... registered myself for german level 1. not by credit tho.. scare couldnt score well and drag my overall results for the final. RM200/semester. piece of dead meat now. God save me!!!!

talking about foreign language.. had always wanted to sign up for french, thinking that i might be going to paris one day. connie said her uncle told her tat it's useless to take french,"bonjour bonjour" is useless, german would be better since germany is famous for its engineering, so yea,i signed up for german then. hehe...
lotsa people asked why didnt i register for japanese or korean. well,my answer is,those languages are far too common, everyone is after it, losing its speciality. hehe.. some more, those languages can be learned by own through webs, books and also series.. i dont like something too common, just like the japanese classes. the classes are FULL during the first day when it was opened for registration. i like to go for something.... UNUSUAL and also challenging. hahaks!=P

registered for the engineering run held on the 16th in conjunction of engineering week by IEM (something like 'institute of engineering malaysia'). thanks to that engineering run, i'm very hardworking these days. every friday and sunday i'd walk and jog up to balai cerapan (top of the hill of UTM) hehehehehe..... i'm very healthy. wakakakakaka...

went for PRS meeting last sun nite. guess what.... we sat in a circle. glancing through the members and i found.................. i'm PROUD to be a chinese. why? huhu.... all malays and i'm the ONLY chinese girl! worst than my basic comm class,at least still have two china girls there. derrrrr..... people said it's easy for chinese to get high post in conducting activities in such cases, so......... i volunteered to be the secretary of an upcoming activity. after some voting (there's another candidate which i suggested XD),majority votes went to me. ROFL..... well, i didnt join PRS for nothing or being influenced by anyone, i just joined it cause i wanted to learn something from it and also see if there's any difference between this PRS and st thomas PRS. haha.. but then later i found out that the one under UTM is better than the one under kolej. derrrr... it's too late for me to withdraw myself from it. sobz....

waiting for tzeboon to bring me the text book of engineering maths at library.. where is he? hmmm...

movies

wanna watch 'yes,man'. anyone?*shrugs*

tired

insane timetable. monday to friday,starts lectures at 8AM. it's AM! not PM! ouh my god...
met killer who kills students---survey lecturer. he would just shoot not even an A- if he's unsatisfied. no one went well during last sem's survey camp[attended by group 1 students] just because of him. great heh? i guess so.
couldnt even detect wifiutm in my room, the highest floor, level 4[includes ground floor]. i'm only staying at the third floor which is also the highest floor back in my hometown.. here i have fourth floor as the highest floor. dead me when the lift is out of service. and i tried it few days ago. well...
love the engineering maths lecturer, a malay. she teaches in english! my ouh my.... how long i've been waiting for such a lecturer, who would give lectures in english instead of malay. woohooooo.... credits to her!*round applause please =D*








back to kuching again for cny on the 17th, and back to johor again on the 4th of feb [skipping two survey practical. i'm D.E.A.D]

*mood isnt any better yet*

SAD

i'm not in a good mood these days after coming back to johor. the very first day,i could hardly sleep soundly. kept turning rounds on bed.
oya,i've moved to single room,which means,i'm now staying in a room with... me myself,小白(little white) and handphones. kiki... wondering who's little white? hahaks.... it's........... my lappie! woohoooo..... juz named my lappie few days ago. had this thought abruptly. then decided to call it 小白(lil white) since it's all white in colour,even the adapter is also white. hahaks! funny? no no..... it's not funny. it's MY lil white. hahahaha...*nuts!smack!!*

*going astray*

alright,back to the topic.
well.. kind of severe homesick. dunno why... just miss kuching. some more... west msians.... are freakishly cannot get along at any time *not all... but some. some whom i've met. not every west msians i've met* and yea,one of them would be my ex-roommate. well... she's really... INDESCRIBABLE. if i can put it in words, dead her. kinda phobia with west msians after i met her. so yea,tat's how horrible it is.

had coQ on wednesday afternoon. i signed up for basic communication. the lecturer actually asked us to intro ourselves by telling our names,hometown,course doing,interests and dislikes. at tat very moment i couldnt think of any dislikes. not until when i saw HER at the foyer of my faculty,with a face looking d*** innocent with "i am innocent" on her face,which will attracts guys' attention. then i know,i freakishly DISLIKE two-faced ppl!!! this is really sickening. no GUYS is willing to believe that she bullied sarah tan and made her to move her room,but will be willing to believe tat sarah tan bullied her and made herself moved to single room. but only gurls and those who were betrayed by her will believe that it's me,sarah tan who was bullied.

then would be the dude who had rumors with me last sem. well... he tried hard to avoid me, not even a single 'hi-bye'. this is seriously on my nerves. wondering if should i announce tat i wont fall for classmate? he makes me miss neozhiyuan more and those guys who had rumors with me before, at least, they were seriously open-minded and are still my frenz till today whereby we can chat freely. and yea, tat's how 'open-minded' are west msians, or rather those from kluang,johor. FREAK!

alright guys, listen, esp classmates, i, sarah tan, wont fall for any of you no matter how great are you all, so DONT misunderstand when i treat you all nice. ENOUGH???????

i was so down that i nearly shed my tears when i thought of these. why on earth do i deserve all these?????!
s***! treating someone nice is also a fault. WTH!

back in action ^^

huhu.... finally get to online! truly very desperate for blogging. hahaks!=P

brand new year. anyone with any special resolutions? hmm... hereby wishing you all the best for it and God bless..^^
so ya.. for MY resolutions... hmm... shared with sisters and brothers of hope church last night when having caregroup. well...
first first.. i wanna get to know God more and walk in His path stronger.
then then... i wanna strive hard to get first class. cause... i've got nothing else to glorify His name but only by my studies. hee..
then then... if pozble,if God allows it... might want to fish a good fish this year. hahaks!
then then... i want those stupid misunderstandings to get rid of me and also stays away from me for at least two miles!!
then then... i want to be a happy baby everyday...
also also... i wanna work in a civil firm during the may's break to try how is it like to be working in a civil firm.
last last... wanna slim down! get click on to a more healthier lifestyle which consists of jogging,earlier sleep,more drinking water and also strictly X deep fried foods. hahaks!

pray hard i can make it ey?^^