blunt

*four more days to go back to kuching!!!!! kuching fest, wait for me!!!!!!!!!*

applied mechanics on tomorrow night, 8pm. the chapter of moment of force i'm still blurr-ing. got 3D 3D thingy kok... haiz... eboon, i die liao... although it's only a test, it takes up 20% in final. sei lar sei lar... i dunNo who to ask. dont dare to ask course mates and seniors, cause if i asked and they were to teach, they'll have to teach me from the very basic part, scare that they'll get mad when they realized that i'm actually so so so so stupid. wish that xiangyi is off the same course with me, then can ask him. at least, he knows how terrible is my physics. but sadly, different groups. subjects taken are different. so cannot ask him. senior and course mates did ofer help, but i rejected, cause dont dare to trouble them. eboon arrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!! i die liao lar...........T____T












did i say that i'm blunt before? hmm...
i'm here in johor for about two months in days to come. without noticing time is flying, suddenly realized that i'm actualy A university student now! [okay, i know, i'm blunt. dont stone throw me ey..=x] last night while walking back to room after sending ginseng tea, i came to a realization out of a sudden that i'm now staying in campus! staying with people who are younger than me(matrix students), same age with me, and also older than me(either went through transition or seniors). can meet with course mates and seniors at any time i want. meetings held during night time. group discussions also at night. amazing ey? cause all these while during schooling days, meetings and group discussions are all in the afternoon when classes are over. u can have ur course mates or seniors to ta pao for u if u dont feel like going out for meal. and the feeling is really.........


much more than COMPLICATED...


i'm not any excited now. only during the first day i reached here. as days passed, i'm emo x_x







the feeling i have now is really complicated.
it's like............

"why things changed out of a sudden?"
i dont understand.
i know this can train me to be independent.
but but but... i thought i'm very independent all these while..???!! since primary three i already learned to take care of my brother. cause my brother was primary one back then. and since primary one, my parents werent beside me during break time like any other children's parents. cause they had to work.
i memang dont understand all these.








it's mid of august.
suddenly realized that i'm now 19th!!!!!!
i'm 20 in less than four months' time. OMG........ i really dont realized that i'm 19 all these while. didnt really treasure it. i wont be in my teens anymore in months' time. and some more, i RUINED my 19 ey..... OMG..............................................


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i should treasure the numbered days of my 19th start from now lar..... blurb......





[have to go reload agAIN tomorrow. i last reloaded it on the 4th of august with an amount of RM30!!!!!x_x]