happy Chap Goh Meh

hey people, happy Chap Goh Meh! it's another Chap Goh Meh, which i wouldnt be able to celebrate in kuching. nvm, another two more years, it's gonna be a short time.

besides a Chap Goh Meh(the last day of CNY), it's also an Eastern Valentine's Day, where the ladies, would go to the lake side to throw mandarin across, with their details written, and see who's going to be the destined man to pick up mandarin(the men would be waiting at the other side across the lake). so far, that's what i heard. haha. so, hereby, wishing people Happy Chap Goh Meh and also a happy Eastern Valentine's Day =)) may the couples be as sweet as usual forever!

oya! it's sunday! as usual, sunday service. it's a very special one for me today!

we had an invited pastor to share sermon with us today! and the topic is---How to treat yourself better.

three key points: 1, respect people. 2, help people. 3, forgive people.

actually, due to that incident, before the pastor started sharing, i cried twice. then when he's preaching, i cried again. then in the end, when the pastor called for people to go up to the alter to be prayed for so as to be set free, i knelt and cried again. a total of four times.

then i know, i place friendship first. much more important than love.

i narrated the scene when Jesus was being crucified on the cross, guess what, that pastor told the same thing too! God is so real. every time i'd pray that God would speak to me, through His words, same goes to this morning. and He really spoke to me! so real~~ so yea, people, never ever tried to skip a sunday service. that's very important.

i know... God says cannot hold our anger till the sun sets. God says, we have to pray for our enemy, bless them but not curse them. i know! all these things i know! i've been very tolerance all these while.i tried to ignore, tried to act dont know, kept reminding myself of what God says.

and now.... after being prayed for and set free, i've forgiven u all, i just got to love you all, with Jesus' love.

my heart is a dead one towards u all

fac nite

date: 26/2/10

dressing and makeup: superb simple. the dress is actually a long dress, i pulled up and make it a tube dress. hahaha. superb simple makeup. no darker color. i wanted everything to be simple to look elegant nia. "elegant" is the theme mer. didnt want to fish any guys also. didnt want to be fac queen too!

post: emcee

experience: none

atmosphere: kinda cold

mood: sad [never understand why ppl not sporting at all, just for fun, people!]

i learn: i'm not important. helped to entertain some final year seniors before the event started while the three waiting for some of their friends, the bunch of i-dunno-how-to-describe went photo taking, when i came to a realization, they were done with their photo-taking session. happily being very proud. man, i'm just an emcee, i dont have the responsibility to help U ushers to entertain those seniors! it's UR JOB!!!!*&&%$£££() i'm way too good to be ignored and to be bullied heh? u all will get it one day! i'm sad. never been sad over friendship thingy back in kuching for the whole of my 18 years! until i entered university. i dont get it! i just freakishly dont get it! fine. people, i know u all backstabbed me. dont think that i dont know. u all said, sarah is a lone ranger, an alien. but i can tell u all very proudly. me, being a lone ranger, being alienated in ur eyes, i THANK GOD! cause He gives me the ability to judge a person by its cover. and all these while, i know that, i really THANK GOD for just being a hi-bye friend with u all, when things and conflicts rose, i wasnt in the hot water. i know who can be friends, while who only a hi-bye friend. i know, cause i could judge. i'm a lone ranger, i am alien! so what? u all very proud to be in a gang? cause u all are just the same type of people. backstabbing, finger pointing when u all are way too free, and have nothing much to talk about. so what? darn!

[cont'd]

special thanks to Mr Wong HaYung, from 5s2'05, kuching high. his comment on facebook reminds me alot!

scene:

when Jesus was being crucified on the cross, soldiers down there were all mocking him. and the only thing Jesus did was, he shouted to Heavenly Daddy, "forgive them, for they dont know what are they doing."

yup, i have to forgive u all. i need the love of Jesus to forgive u all. with my love alone, i cant do that. with my own might, i could only love my friends, but not enemy. so yea, i need Jesus' love to love u all, the fakers, the backstabbers. u better pray hard that i'll be filled with Jesus' love to forgive u all.

i love...

particularly this picture! dunno why. LOL. first time i had this kind of posture. i think it's nice. what do u think? aha~ taken at Damai Puri, went there last saturday with cheekiong, ah teck and ah chuan, the primary class gang again! LOL

happy university-ing!=))

finally.

i'm back to UTM again. and this is how KTHO L12 welcomed me: lift under maintenance while i'm staying at the 5th floor, leaving me all alone with my laptop, water bottle and the stupid luggage.

my mid-semester break is declared to come to an end.

i felt a sudden down when i reached Kuching International Airport this morning. this is a stupid one. i never felt down leaving. not even for the very first time when i went Johor. the only reason i could think of for the down is, i attended a date with my girlfriends last night. so yea, note this, no gathering on the day before i fly off. otherwise, i'd miss u all =X

*****

so how was your Chinese New Year celebration??

this year's celebration is indeed a very different one! i did enjoy, and i do cherish every moment being with you all, you know who you are [lazy for naming =P]

it's different in the sense that, for the first time i met my primary classmates most of the time! for movies, for meals, for chit-chatting. kinda sad that, not many attended every session. hmm. and for this, i personally feel that, the bondings between me and my primary classmates are much more closer than that of those form 6's. alright, not to mention about university's. i dont know, that's what i think. what do u think, my dear primary school classmates?*grin*

besides, for the very first time that i went for movies during Chinese New Year! apart from visitings of course! haha. and went home at around 1sth in the morning. LOL.

few years back, i once spent my Valentine's day with my driving lesson tutor. then once with my primary school kids at tuition centre, then a normal one during my first year in university, and this year, movie with my primary school classmates! a new surprise every year! LOL LOL!

as usual, my form6 classmates assumed i own Digi Telecommunication. so, i, again, called for a visiting. but, decisions of whose house to visit wasnt on my hand. i'm only responsible for gathering people for the visiting. and surprisingly [or should i say expected?], those who've found girlfriends, werent joining us, and it left only a few of us. kinda.... disappointed though. that's for the second day of Chinese New Year.

and the third day was an insane one! i went out at around 10sth in the morning, and back home at around 10sth at night, with a total of about 12hours at outside visiting with some seniors. on the day itself, i find that, kuching really has lotsa handsome guys!!! and also, i HAVE to sharpen my Hakka. when people around you are speaking a dialect that you dont really understand, you'd feel like >--o| (banging ur head on the wall). LOL LOL.

the fourth day was a disaster! i get to know a truth for an incident that happened last year, few days before Chinese New Year, this made me feel like BBQ that guy!!!== while in the afternoon, i received a valentine's gift from someone i've Q-ed early this year! and this explodes me! sigh. and so, THAT DAY WAS A TOTAL DISASTER TO ME!!!

days after that i couldnt really recall, spare me and my memory, would you? i'm a lady with alzheimer disease mer XD there's some thing i'm very sure is, anorexia is back to my side again! oh no!!!! i have to cure it! one year plus back, i had anorexia was due to the stupid break up, and this time, i have no idea. everything is just oh-so normal to me. nothing wrong with my emotion too! well...

for photos, do check out my facebook. lazy to upload again =P

sorry, for all the words. it's a long post i know. i couldnt do anything, but thousands of sorry =X

have a great week, people. friends back to respective universities and colleges, enjoy ur study life.

girls, i'd see you all again at the end of april. =)) by the way, i havent bought my ticket! oh no~~~ come, tell me, should i go back on the very next day after my last paper for final exam or a few more days later??? hmm..

i dont know

dont ask me why

i dont know why

u dont have the look i always wanted

u're not the famous kid

u're a complete log

if i were to fall for ck,

at least i could tell the others that he has the look

wealth isnt sth that i look for,

so whether you're rich or middle,

it doesnt bother me

ur friends kept asking me why u

i really dont know

i dont know what to answer

i could only say "i dont know"

when will i see u again?

greetings

it's valentine's day again! heh hey! and i'm single again! woohoo~

i'm not picky i hope, cause those being killed by me already have a partner! oh no~~

but seriously i'm not picky la.. the one living in my heart is not even my dream guy le @@~

oya, happy valentine's day! to singles and those celebrating!=))

HAPPY TIGER YEAR!! MAY ALL BE AS STRONG AND HEALTHY AS A TIGER! BUT NOT AS FIERCE.. BE AS GENTLE AS A CAT INSTEAD!!XD

this year's CNY eve...

.... i nearly fainted!

OMG!!!

wanna show off a bit -- i do stay at a very strategic place! kuchingnites, if u know Kuching Specialist Hospital, i'm staying at the apartment right behind that hospital. as days go by, i have one supermarket, three cafes, one pharmacy, one clinic, two chinese medical shops, two stationary shops, two bakeries, one hospital, and three shop lots for 4Ds... and recently, across the main road, i have another wet market and another commercial centre. so yea, if i were to sell the apartment at a high price, i guess it wont be a problem for kuching people's buying power.

and yea, i salute the buying power of kuching people too! in just three years' time, the car plate number can grow from QAG to QAS. how sure am i? of course! cause my car is QAG, and it's three years old! LOL LOL. and guess what? u can actually get 80% of those new cars with a "P" sticker. teenagers today.....[okay okay, it refers to me also, three years ago lah!]

people here can be so rich that even Lodge International School *a school where parents pay school fees by semesters, and one semester is around RM1k+++* can afford to build a new block to cater more students, and when the new block is done, on my way home from Tabuan Jaya area will get jammed when it's after-school time with those rich parents parking their big nice cars waiting for their kids on the road side of a one way two lane road. if this happened, imagine it, we road users only left one lane for driving, and suddenly we have to change lane after a traffic light in less than 50m. on top of it, it's only a neighborhood!! i wanna faint long long~

i wonder if Foody Goody cafe used black magic or not, as usual, exit from my apartment's gate jammed! with those cars at the yellow line!!! not that there's no parking lots at that commercial centre, the problem is, it's full with cars to Foody Goody!!! maybe i should call 999 someday...XD

even on the way to Fat Cat cafe, which is famous for its laksa, located at another commercial centre just next to the supermarket, can have traffic jam!!

i really have no idea where do all the people come from! imagine this-- one morning, u can have both Foody Goody and Fat Cat cafes flooded with eaters and cars *sigh sigh sigh*

some more, it's CNY eve today. on my way out this morning, i actually had to turn a big round to avoid the jam around the market area ==!!! on my way back home, the exaggerating part is, i cannot turn to the junction to my house as usual!!! i had to turn a big round again! cause it's jammed with cars!! OMG OMG OMG~

and while driving, i was thinking if i should get an airplane or helicopter to go home next round when i'm back home again.

side note: i had the symptoms for fever two days ago. i'm the type that would not go for doctor unless it's critical. so, i slept for 12hours and i managed to get rid of fever! thank God! flu still stays, so i slept for about 9hours again last night. ended up, flu is better, but will still have sneezes occasionally. to conclude, SLEEPING IS THE BEST MEDICINE! LOL LOL.

before fingers off from my keyboard, happy CNY to the world! and whoever reads this! have a nice Tiger year, and may God bless =))

i salute my stupidity

what should i describe today as?? good? bad?? i really have no idea..............

i went to send out my application letters around 11sth this morning, to apply for a job in construction firm. i purposely chose construction firm cause i wanna go explore site works this year and then consultant firm when i'm having my industrial training.

the first company is Ann Tak Construction, then Lau Hieng Ming Construction and lastly Hock Lian Development Sdn Bhd.

half dead i knocked on the door of Ann Tak's but there was no reply, so i just put the letter on top of the shelf near the stairs entrance [no postbox ><]

then i moved on to Lau Hieng Ming's. a clerk asked where do i come from, after some explanation, the clerk handed in the letter, then asked me to have a seat. i was sort of, "huh??" cause i was wearing a tee shirt, short pants and a pair of crocs! impossible an interview today. then after some time, a lady came out and asked how did i get to know that company, i said i drove passed and saw it etc etc. then she told me that if there's any news, she'd call me.

after that, i went to Hock Lian's. before this, i did call the person-in-charge, Mr Wong, regarding this. but when i called again last week, a lady asked me to write-in no matter what. i was like, "==!!!" nvm, write in, what's so hard? aha~ when i reached the office, it's such a coincident that Mr Wong was in! so, he sort of interviewed me on the spot lo. with my tee shirt, short pants and crocs!!!! this is my first time i encountered this la!!!zzzzzZZZZzzzz

nvm, then he explained what would i be doing, all the working hours and stuffs. finally it came to the time when he asked what's my expected salary. my thinking was, "i only come to gain experience, as long as the pay can cover my petrol and meals, that's it!" so i blurted out RM400!!!!! in less than five minutes' time, i kept scolding myself stupid! he asked me how much i want and i said RM400!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! i really salute my stupidity wuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......zzzzzzZZZZZZZZ stupid la stupid la stupid la stupid la stupid la~~~~ ==!!! ==!!! ==!!! ==!!! ==!!!

anyway, it's better to have a job assured rather than having a pair of hello kitty crocs right? some more, i went in to the office with SUCH an attire wor.. LOL LOL LOL ROFL ROFL ROFL!!!! muahahahahah.

side note: after one year plus of saving those 20cents and 50cents coins, i actually saved RM190!!! is it a lot?? only able to buy two pairs of kitty crocs o!*shrugs* as usual, those money is only for saving, cannot be drawn!

harlo

back home on last friday. as usual, sleep early, wake up early.

disaster.

bought a pair of hello kitty crocs, get a new necklace and hurt my foot again.

RM95 for the crocs, i know it's expensive, but it's RM40 cheaper than what i could get at Parkson. with hello kitty some more.....

my 5 years old necklace broken for the third time. thank God that it broke when i'm back here. i spend RM80 to mend it twice. so i was thinking might as well i get a new one. hence i sold it and bought a new one, i added another RM120 to get a new necklace. that's the cheapest i can get from the shop, mostly RM500+++ how good if i can get one of them @@~

kicked a wooden chopping board weighs about 2kg and it fell on my foot! hurting the bones.. and now, i could hardly bend my foot, forcing me to get a pair of sandals *i only have high heels here* i really really dunno why my mum suddenly placed the chopping board right next to a washing machine, it should be in the kitchen as usual!!!! cause i was carrying something, who the heck would notice the stupid chopping board!!! grrrrrrr &%£@!&*

disaster @_@

till then again~~~~

hmm

and yea, I MISS HIM!

it's been about one month plus since i last met him.

nice? u better say it is. weather these few days are superbly hot. i was sweating while doing this. LOL

the clock is ticking sooO slowly. friday seems to arrive slower than i've expected.

i dont care, i just wanna see him XD

till then again

hello, february!

time flies! here comes february! and i've finished my test 1! but not officially, cause still have one last paper--Ethnic Relation, after the Chinese New Year. aaawwWWW....

here it off my academic tests, there it comes my church annual Bible test.. noooOOOO~~~ it'll be on friday night some more! the night when i'm back to kuching!! oh no!!!!==

initially i planned to blog sth kinda stern. but then i dunno where to start, how to narrate. so, off it goes the idea. and silently i swallowed all the bitterness. aha~

in short,

the so-called friendship built in university stage is very brittle the bond.