hola its june.
basically counting down my days to go home again
in less than two weeks to go
how nice
every month unpaid leave+air ticket... i feel like I'm actually printing money, as if... *flip table*
the increase in salary like never happened at all, all contributed to airlines in giving myself a break.
imagine its more than $150 per day of unpaid leave, and about $250 of air ticket..... seriously, *eyes roll*
i told my once-colleague-then-friend-then-now-colleague friend *networking does matter* that its really different to go home and get recharged. he said that I'm not happy working here. thats why i keep running back home. previously when he was working at JB he went home like less than five times per year.
well, its kind of like a bang on my head. i.am.not.happy. ??
looking back last year, i didn't go home as frequent as now and i managed to survive.
whenever clock ticks 530pm, i quickly pack and go. if i was forced to OT, i start grumbling.
unlike previously, i really don't mind work from 8am-8pm.
am i really unhappy working here? perhaps I'm really unhappy.
I'm counting down also..... i messed up my life this april fool, its a one year contract, i vowed not to renew the contract when it ends. I'm going to start afresh next year april fool *eyes roll*
or maybe, i should start off with a much smaller scale of project. instead of this kind of mixed development, with all these rubbish office politics and RTOs who wanna tipu OT.
side note:
I'm happy that the special man would actually note me whenever he's flying home. i really like that. and as usual i would remind him to come back in one piece. aha! *wink*
Jun 14, 2014
Jun 9, 2014
skim cepat kurus
entering the third month of new job, fell sick for the third time =.=
maybe i should list "medical expenses" as one of the items in my monthly budget
want it or not, was forced to be on MC. and stupidly, MC during probation period is unpaid leave. geez, wrong timing to fall sick =.=
fever for three days, and thanks to the medication, was very weak and blur, nauseous and light-headed.
even had a blackout while cooking instant noodles. knowing that I'm going to collapse soon, i quickly threw the noodles into my bowl and rushed to my room to lie on bed. and tats how serious was i. sigh.
lose appetite for any food, except grapes and kiwi, strong craving for the two.
thanks to the two days MC, really rested well.
grounded, and bedridden =.=
surprisingly, felt that my jeans is loose this morning. and suddenly i could buckle my belt to the last hole XD
jia lat, i got thinner again.
so if one wanna slim down, the fastest way out would be sick till colourful XD
maybe i should list "medical expenses" as one of the items in my monthly budget
want it or not, was forced to be on MC. and stupidly, MC during probation period is unpaid leave. geez, wrong timing to fall sick =.=
fever for three days, and thanks to the medication, was very weak and blur, nauseous and light-headed.
even had a blackout while cooking instant noodles. knowing that I'm going to collapse soon, i quickly threw the noodles into my bowl and rushed to my room to lie on bed. and tats how serious was i. sigh.
lose appetite for any food, except grapes and kiwi, strong craving for the two.
thanks to the two days MC, really rested well.
grounded, and bedridden =.=
surprisingly, felt that my jeans is loose this morning. and suddenly i could buckle my belt to the last hole XD
jia lat, i got thinner again.
so if one wanna slim down, the fastest way out would be sick till colourful XD
Jun 3, 2014
小幸福 ^_^
From that special man =)
it really surprised me that one night he texted me and asked if i collect kitty, coz he bought one for me. asked why was he so random he said he thought of me! wow~ very thoughtful of him huh.... but i rmb i did tell him before that i don't really collect mcd's kitty =.=
and so at that moment i tot i would only have one. till the following week he told me that he bought another one for me again. really surprised! haha!! i wonder if he get a set for his sister.......-->_-->
this man really jia lat. to buy tis kitty one has to get an extra value meal, means, upsized one. didn't he get bloated???
managed to sneak an evening with him last saturday. ouh he left site early!!!!!!!!! :P
but i knocked off late that saturday, so only managed to meet him at around 6plus after cleaning myself.
thanks to the super cheap sandals, i had to be on heels. haha! *die die won't get cheap shoes anymore*
with a black half long short skirt from Sianeder and an orangy red mango top *only $13 after discount, cheap dao siao* and a pair of heels haha!
was really surprised to see that tuxedosam!! all the while tot that i have only two. haha didn't know that he actly get me another one ^_^
he really put a smile on my face through these tough days.
was kind of happy, tho i was really really really tired, been OT-ing for few days straight, lousiest was near 10pm. he too said that i looked very tired :(
but seeing him really made my day =)
如果这是一种幸福，那这幸福便是偷来的小幸福
很多事，我说不上为什么
很多事，言语无法说尽
但我很珍惜这种偷来的小幸福 :P
Apr 13, 2014
stressed
end of week 2
never tried sleeping soundly through the night ever since i picked up this job
its really like torturing myself with this
know well that works will never end, until the end of this project
i feel good completing all the works i planned for the day but at the end of the day, back at home, i would still think of next day's tasks.
like, seriously, I'm tired and sleepy everyday, really sleepy, i close my eyes but the mind just doesnt wanna shut down. wake up in the middle of night EVERYDAY!!!!
once, the man said that when he thought of monday then feel tired. i said, talking of monday i wanna cry.
it's not the monday blue that makes me feel like hanging myself. its the progress. things planned yet dunno if can be carried out.
the man laughed at me and said, now you know contractor stress.
if thats stress, then I'm very stressed now.
i have a bunch of RTOs without dignity. would drag the casting time just wanted to claim OT. hello, when they drag the time, means i gonna be off late too. and once again, hello, they can claim OT, at higher rate some more, and i couldn't claim my OT. some more its merely two hours $10, who would wanna have such OT claim???!!! i can stay for free, only when i want to. not when they want to.
oh man, I'm an RE myself but kena bullied by bunch of RTOs. what the fish is this!!
my zone's RTO dragged my inspection time for his own convenience on Saturday that day. hey, I'm only half day on Saturday. i got too enraged and broke down and cried, just couldn't help to control :(
i didn't care what they want, i just called off the casting and went home. if thats what they want, they should arrange it themselves. my teammates are all phillipinos, and please, never ever try working with a bunch of Pinoys. they really sucks max, differ not much from certain ethnic of malaysia =.= if its their intention to let me die, fret not, I'm gonna let them die too. times up, leave taken, i will just throw everything aside and fly back home. now lets see who's gonna die.
Apr 5, 2014
new job
a week passed by really like a blink of an eye
too busy too tired for everything
so tired to the level that i m even lazy to munch dinner, would really just skipped dinner, shower, rest in front of laptop and hit the sack.
on the first day i did not bring my planner home, happily left it on site.
who knows, once back home, suddenly remembered that i had to do this and that on the next day and there was no way to note it down, it left me hanging for the whole night, i doubt if i had solid three hours of sleeping =.=
now i really can feel how tired is the man when he always complain that he's tired, and couldnt sleep well due to work =.= =.= back then i still happily told him not to think of work after knocking off. now i know.... there are times when the mind really cannot shut down one.
life of an RE and a site engineer really differs a lot.
used to be waiting for engineers to submit inspection forms and this and that. now i have to do all these my own, to study everything carefully, highlighted the relevant part and submit to the RTOs. some more have to settle this within the first half hour i clock in. so now i would choose to reach site before 8, to get more time to settle those things.
used to have walking platform while inspecting slab rebars when spacings are bigger than 250. now i have to walk very carefully so that my feet wont get stuck halfway. the walking platforms are really only for RTOs =.= the man asked if i have learned to walk like a cat. well, i said since cranes are also under me, so i just asked the operators to lift me up :P
used to be engineers escorting me down to site, raining days they prepare umbrella and hold for me. now i m the one to do those, to serve the RTOs.
used to be the one to x-ray contractors, now i m the one that kena x-rayed. thank God i m main con, so i can x-ray sub con before me kena x-rayed by RTOs XD
used to be the one sitting in the office, enjoying aircond. now it would be counted as good life if i can be in the office for four hrs including lunch time throughout the day. really sweating in and out, shirt and pants wet and dry, dry then wet, wet then dry, the cycle keep repeating itself =.=
the man asked if i regret to switch from an RE to a site engineer.
well, i quite like it tho, RE really has no challenge at all XD
at least, for the time being, i quite like my life, though i complained a lot xD XD
p.s.: if those purely sitting in the office use brain do works one also complain stressed and tired, seriously i dunno what should we who use both brain and physical energy complain... maybe too tired to complain, just hit the sack would do? haha
too busy too tired for everything
so tired to the level that i m even lazy to munch dinner, would really just skipped dinner, shower, rest in front of laptop and hit the sack.
on the first day i did not bring my planner home, happily left it on site.
who knows, once back home, suddenly remembered that i had to do this and that on the next day and there was no way to note it down, it left me hanging for the whole night, i doubt if i had solid three hours of sleeping =.=
now i really can feel how tired is the man when he always complain that he's tired, and couldnt sleep well due to work =.= =.= back then i still happily told him not to think of work after knocking off. now i know.... there are times when the mind really cannot shut down one.
life of an RE and a site engineer really differs a lot.
used to be waiting for engineers to submit inspection forms and this and that. now i have to do all these my own, to study everything carefully, highlighted the relevant part and submit to the RTOs. some more have to settle this within the first half hour i clock in. so now i would choose to reach site before 8, to get more time to settle those things.
used to have walking platform while inspecting slab rebars when spacings are bigger than 250. now i have to walk very carefully so that my feet wont get stuck halfway. the walking platforms are really only for RTOs =.= the man asked if i have learned to walk like a cat. well, i said since cranes are also under me, so i just asked the operators to lift me up :P
used to be engineers escorting me down to site, raining days they prepare umbrella and hold for me. now i m the one to do those, to serve the RTOs.
used to be the one to x-ray contractors, now i m the one that kena x-rayed. thank God i m main con, so i can x-ray sub con before me kena x-rayed by RTOs XD
used to be the one sitting in the office, enjoying aircond. now it would be counted as good life if i can be in the office for four hrs including lunch time throughout the day. really sweating in and out, shirt and pants wet and dry, dry then wet, wet then dry, the cycle keep repeating itself =.=
the man asked if i regret to switch from an RE to a site engineer.
well, i quite like it tho, RE really has no challenge at all XD
at least, for the time being, i quite like my life, though i complained a lot xD XD
p.s.: if those purely sitting in the office use brain do works one also complain stressed and tired, seriously i dunno what should we who use both brain and physical energy complain... maybe too tired to complain, just hit the sack would do? haha
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