proud ^_*

with all my sweat and handwork and of course by the grace and mercy of the Lord. teehee~

glad that i undergo tertiary education at government uni. most of the private uni don't require students to do this. and this makes me feel proud of myself by the time i claimed this from the stationary shop. hiakz...
glad that the stationary shop is efficient too~ without pre-booking, it can be done in less than 24hours. just that, more expensive than those who did their booking early. due to certain unexpected problem, i didn't get to book the binding service >< so this book actually costed me rm25, which is equivalent to two and half days of expenses. haizzzzzzz whatever~

for the very first time, i haven't bought my ticket yet >< planned the day to go back but couldn't buy it, scared that might have other pop-up problems... guess i'd have to buy it the day before i'll be back. swt

p.s.: one more paper to go, which is on next monday, structural analysis. aih.... i'm ready to be killed by it. so long as i could pass it with not a too-bad grade, that's it.

holidays.... arrghhh how i long for you....

壓力與抗壓

我不是壓力鍋

但是
人小小只的，是有點過於開朗啦
當壓力指數到了一定的level
難保我不會爆鍋
因為 pressure = stress/area
哇哈哈哈

so far我還沒到爆鍋的時候
因為如果遇到心臟停止跳動時，
我就知道我有點過於壓抑了

蝦咪？！
心臟停止跳動？！
我還活著？！
沒進過醫院？！

是啦！
我還活著
因為也就停止那幾秒，呼吸困難罷了啦！
哇哈哈哈

很感謝神的是，
我從小就超開朗的
什麼大風大浪的，都擊不倒我

所以，
說到抗壓。。
我的抗壓性是很強一兩下
除了 投靠神
跑步是我的良伴
嘻嘻

我跑步 不是為了健康、減肥
純粹為了減壓
所以 我一年到頭也就跑那幾次罷了！！XD XD
一個人靜靜的跑步可以慢慢漫漫的想事情
健康，沒有喜樂的心來得重要
無論平時飲食習慣是多健康，壓力還是會吞吃了健康
因為 喜樂的心乃是良藥

p.s: 提早完成論文的後遺症 － 頹廢-ing.如果星期三沒有考試，我還會繼續這種頹廢的日子。。。study week了。。。
6月4日。倒數－ing。我會是打橫死還是豎著死呢？=P
我要回家啦！！！！！！！

nightmare

had nightmares for few nights this few weeks.

the most vivid one was the one i had last week or last two weeks. i dreamt that there was people actually stole my organs from me while i'm alive and left me there just like that. but miraculously i survived for few years after praying, and probably longer than that.
i was really woke up by that dream with heart beat accelerating ><

the most recent one was last night.
i actually dreamt of the moment i had my thesis presentation. i was no joke nervous throughout the whole session, and was woke up by that too @@

seriously don't know how to cope with that. i think even if i'm really well prepared i could have accelerated heart beat as well TT______TT

had this open discussion in class on thursday. just a normal discussion with QnA. not that i don't know how to answer the questions but when i was about to speak, i start to get nervous, till i finished talking. and my hands really turned cold, trembled and heart beat accelerated TT______TT

and now even if i only thought of the presentation i start to get nervous ><

低潮

此時此刻的我

只想

TT________________TT

困惑

論文發表會的panel名單和時間表
終於
出爐了

前幾天當我把論文趕完後
就開始為著panel和時間表禱告
禱告說，
千萬不要給我會問很多問題的教授，
千萬不要在13/6，因為隔天我有試卷
就這樣禱告了幾天。
今早當我看了名單和時間表後
我真的就差沒暈過去
因為
我所禱告不可以發生的事情
全中了！！！
三個教授中兩個是問題寶寶。。
外國人通常都有很多問題的
而且他們都只在帶碩士生的，他們不懂學士生的問題
也難保他們不會當做是碩士生的發表會。。。。

為什麼沒給我中積寶
反而是醬的事情！！

就不可以給我中積寶麼？TT______TT

我就一整天的很困惑 ><
一直問上帝為什麼。。。。。
我知道一切都有神的美意，但是我真的不知道這背後的美意是什麼哪！！！

今天的《靈命日糧》讓我們讀《詩篇46》
第一節就說神是我們的避難所、是我們的力量、是我們在患難中隨時的幫助
而且《靈命日糧》的結尾說，因著神在我的背後，祂的膀臂繞著我，我可以面對在我前面的一切。
我知道上帝又向我說話了⋯⋯好吧！我雖不知道這背後有什麼美意，但是上帝一定會幫助我，不會丟下我不管的 ^__________^
兵來將擋，水來土掩。
AK47、M16來，上帝給我擋！！！XD

blessed =D

yay~ finally submitted my 1st draft on friday. tho kinda incomplete, cause there's still another set of data not completed yet, and i have no idea on how to vomit out a 2-pages conclusion. hahaha.
the 1st draft is basically essence already. cause i vomited it out from tuesday nite till thursday nite. apart from completing chapter 4, i actually amended chapter 1-3, so even though it's only 1st draft, it's my best. haha XD

it's all by the grace of God. praise and glory to the Lord =))

i was super relieved after submitted my 1st draft and played whole day yesterday and went to church in the evening XD but there're tests coming up. oh no~~~

glad to have a bunch of seniors who really take good care of me well and brought me around to have fun XD met a new friend too! a PhD students from electrical. haha.

people nowadays tend to ask, "where would u go after graduating?"

and i have a new plan last nite after attending church's service -- it's all by the will of God. wherever He wants me to, i'll try my best to obey it =) and then i would not have to worry about anything, because wherever i'll be, it's His will and so i believe He'll provide me with all kinds of necessities and i'll only have to stand there to get blessed XD

His blessings ^_^

woohoo~ i experienced His abundant blessings once again today! weeeeheeeee~

around 10sth in the morning, my supervisor texted me saying that our 1st draft should be readied by now. and the 1st draft is inclusive of all chapters. and i was like, "OMG?"
seriously, i'm only at data analysis, haven't even get to analyze my data. and my intro, literature review and methodology need further amendments. i was like, "+_+"
then i consoled myself that God will be over all these. so i was like, "=)" again. haha

after class, before going to meet the PhD student, i received a message from my american friend, Chris, whom i know through Facebook, that he has prayed for me so that God will provide me whatever i want. i did share with him what i'm facing now. he's a good guy. we've been sharing all these while, just that i didn't contact him last year, for no reason =.= and connected back again cause i was looking for solution for Mann-Kendall test last week. so yeah, he's prayed for me =)

so i went to meet the malay guy, Naim, at 3pm.
after a brief intro, he has no idea of how to help me and turned to ask another two PhD malay girls, and so i was like, "oh God...."
okay, at least the two did explain a bit... but basically the discussion was equal to 0. and i started to be nervous cause they were going for a meeting at 4pm, with that, i felt abandoned.
blessings came...
before they really left, they chatted with a guy in front of a computer. well it turned out that that guy is rather familiar with regression analysis than Mann-Kendall test, and my data can be analyzed using regression analysis. so Naim and i moved over to approach that guy. from the conversation, i learned that he's also a PhD student, at the same time a lecturer.
i really really really thank God for his existence!!!
the amazingness is, he's seldom around in utm. it's so happened that he dropped by this afternoon just because he had to submit his PhD draft and amazingly he went to the computer lab to online!!!!!!!!!!!! while listening his explanation, i was like, "oh God, you're really great!" seriously...
i told him my situation and it's quite urgent cause i have to submit draft this friday.
he told me to find related papers to support my research. he can help me with the data analysis, as long as i'm able to get related papers. again i was like, "wow~ God, you're more than amazing!" haha!
it's so happened that his degree thesis was about regression and his current PhD research is about time series. i was more than "wow~" already. then he explained to me the details and also how to avoid from being killed by M16 during thesis presentation and shut those panels' mouth from asking me questions. haha! you should know that it's more than "wow wow~" hahahaha

see, my God is really amazing. He's really something! thank God for His mercy!! He knows that i dragged my work but still provide me and bless me, just because i call upon His name. how can you not "wow~" on my God? hahahahahaha!

seriously appreciate Chris and Carol's prayers on my thesis!!! i'm so blessed with these brother and sister around =D


thank you, Lord!

oh my heart, do not forget the blessings of the Lord in spite of all circumstances. =)

i've got a feeling

when God shuts a door, He'll open at least a window for me.

i've got a feeling
that i'm going to encounter Him fully in these coming weeks!
well, i was just being blessed by Him.
the PhD girl under the supervision of the maths lecturer i've found isn't able to guide me with my data analysis. she said she'll find another one to guide me. statistically, there's a probability that she won't be able to find any.
 BUT, by the grace of God, she found one!!

i know He won't cast me away from His side
cause i'm His precious daughter =D

He'll shower His abundant blessings on me like heavy downpour till i say enough! haha 

blessed and bliss

He is great.

He is good.

always great and good. =D

love Him lots =DD

just when i'm lost in analyzing my data, a mechanical junior finally scanned the chapter of regression from a statistical book with the instructions to analyze data with excel

and while exploring my stupid excel with the stoooopid mac, i found that i didnt have the "data analysis" function in that stupid excel.

so again, i asked mr Google.

he told me to download StatPlus. and i did.

and now, i can do analysis.

BUT

i dunno how to read the results!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA

so funny.

BUT

i'm happy

HAHAHAHAHAHA

thank you Lord!!!

a prayer can really move a mountain. try it and u'll know =DD

Praise and glory be the Lord's. 

-saranghae-

stleeesssed

some little crazy thing i did when i'm over-stressed T_T

this is the steps to make a stalk. do more to make a bouquet of it. i got no mood to do a bouquet =.=

have fun!=D

p.s.:the more i face statistics, the more i feel like vomiting statistics. dislike statistics.........><

♥

freshly out from oven =D around 930pm.

thank God for His grace, mercy and love....
i took less than a week to complete it... chapter 1 introduction, chapter 2 research methodology and chapter 3 literature review. with some laziness and stupid short course"how to get yourself employed" in between whereby two days were gone without working on my thesis.

it's not a formalized one. the spacing and those aren't formalized. since it's just a draft so i might just as well submit the informal one and after being corrected by my supervisor then only i formalize everything =DD

water

my room is currently flooded, disregard that i'm staying at 3rd floor...

my thesis is about water.
so journals i found are all regarding water.

hence,
my room is FLOODED

/.\

give me a kick, i can be productive. trust me!

my supervisor texted me on monday, saying that i have to submit the thesis draft on next week. by that time, my progress is 0%. not even a single journal found haha!
and now.....
not bad mar my progress =P

so stressful, cause my body area is small....

Stress = Loading / Area

XD XD

终于

噢 我亲爱的毕业论文⋯⋯⋯⋯

终于⋯⋯

我想到要什么题目了

final year's first sem

it's going to be all about water this semester.

my room gonna be flooded soon!

FYP - hydrology.

two electives - one is hydrology analysis and design, while the other one is integrated water resource management.

oh my oh my~ but i think i aint going to regret it. the two elective courses might help a lot in completing my FYP.

hmm. going to change title for my thesis. thanks to the laziness of the respective department we have in sarawak that did not do analysis on some data which is super important for my current title. siiiiiiigh! time wasted to run few times to those departments during the last hols. oh my smurf!

~~~~~

i have cold hands and feet frequently. and i'm super lazy to boil herbs to maintain good health. it's very time consuming.

since i have some income while having practical during the hols, tho not much, i try to get some hassle-free chinese med..

and this is what i get. rm90+ for 6bottles of this pills. it's claimed to be able to nurse one's health in long term.

i just started to consume this, so the exact outcome i'm not very sure about it. hmm

but, it's kinda a torment. hmm... one bottle contains 14g of small pills. and i actually drank two glasses of water in order to finish this small stupid bottle of pills. i took more than 5times to empty the whole bottle =.=

normally in our daily living, 14g isnt significant at all. but when it comes to this, you'll realize how much is 14g....

this small bottle of med, i separate into two portions.

while for the chinese med above, imagine that i have to separate into more than five bigger portions.

and it's..... "yaiks!"+_+

Love letter

finally received the letter from my FYP supervisor requesting the department of integration and drains for some datas that i need for my FYP, after a week plus -.-

i just realized that...

can my FYP be any more complicated?

if possible, get a daily-based data. hey! DAILY! and it's long term data, say like, minimum 5years?!!_!!

i'm really in a wrong field. should have put finance and business as 4th choice -.-

some day....

some day.....

i'll be a banker or broker.

some day....

it's just... sooner or later.

i will....

cause i'm $$_$$ muahahahahaha