nightmare

had nightmares for few nights this few weeks.

the most vivid one was the one i had last week or last two weeks. i dreamt that there was people actually stole my organs from me while i'm alive and left me there just like that. but miraculously i survived for few years after praying, and probably longer than that.
i was really woke up by that dream with heart beat accelerating ><

the most recent one was last night.
i actually dreamt of the moment i had my thesis presentation. i was no joke nervous throughout the whole session, and was woke up by that too @@

seriously don't know how to cope with that. i think even if i'm really well prepared i could have accelerated heart beat as well TT______TT

had this open discussion in class on thursday. just a normal discussion with QnA. not that i don't know how to answer the questions but when i was about to speak, i start to get nervous, till i finished talking. and my hands really turned cold, trembled and heart beat accelerated TT______TT

and now even if i only thought of the presentation i start to get nervous ><