i'm planning for a break up. told me colleague about the happenings last night. *sort of asking for her opinion*
her reaction after listening to my illustration---> "this kind of guy, can be dumped."
she asked why didnt i scold him for leaving me behind in the dark and for not introducing me to his friends. even if introduce me as a normal friend,not as girlfriend.
my reaction---> "...................." monolog dalaman: why scold? scoldings=quarrellings. i dont wish to have quarelling. baru one week nia dy quarell. i dont want tat.
i'm STUPID. i'm always stupid.
it is confirmed that something is wrong with him. not sure if he's having another gurl. but,something is wrong with him for sure.
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i'll have to sacrifice a lot for the stupid and dunno-will-kena-not interview.
air ticket to johor (airasia) - RM309/- (to and fro,with tax included)
a day of unpaid leave [off day switched to friday] - RM32+
fixed commission of the month - RM300 *there'll be no more commission given if unpaid leave is taken T.T *
hotel,taxi and food - going to be around RM100++
sarah is dead.
date with my darling has to be cancelled as i switched my off day to friday.
Mr yap, sorry lerh.. the maybank thingy... have to be postponed agAIN. paiseh...
Apr 20, 2008
Apr 18, 2008
covering
it's been a week i'm with my darling.time flies.things happened was like a dream.despite those happiness, i found sth not right.he's trying hard to cover our relation.and i find no reason for him to do so.he said he doesnt want ppl around to hav questionaire.my colleague said unless he's with another gal still.or else he wont cover.i dont think i'm bad enough to have him intro me as his gal.
went to his friend's birthday gathering at hornbill after our dinner at causeway bay.u people wont imagine how did he treat me after we got off from his car heading to hornbill.he just walked and walked and walked and left me behind him,without turning his head and take at look at me.if there was any bad guy who wanna attack me,i bet,he wont know.when meeting his friends,he didnt even bother to intro me to his friends,leaving me there 'gong gong' *in hokkien* dunno like wat.could only thank God tat there were two or three were from kuching high.like hanloong,leslie lee and ee siang. WTH................
wat is the point to cover???????????????????????????????!!!
even blinds can feel that we are together. my colleague asked me not to fall deep deep with him if he still cover, dont act close with me in front of the public and etc.
my God........... no point to love him whole heartedly.
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God's mercy that i'm short listed for the interview for architecturial course at UTM.the interview is held on next friday. at UTM. which means i have to fly to Johor just for tat stupid and dunno-will-kena-not interview. oh Lord.................. i wonder if me short listed for USM. if i am....die liao....after UTM, USM. la la la la la..... cant take too many unpaid leave ler...early of month d took two lor....x_x
pray for me.
went to his friend's birthday gathering at hornbill after our dinner at causeway bay.u people wont imagine how did he treat me after we got off from his car heading to hornbill.he just walked and walked and walked and left me behind him,without turning his head and take at look at me.if there was any bad guy who wanna attack me,i bet,he wont know.when meeting his friends,he didnt even bother to intro me to his friends,leaving me there 'gong gong' *in hokkien* dunno like wat.could only thank God tat there were two or three were from kuching high.like hanloong,leslie lee and ee siang. WTH................
wat is the point to cover???????????????????????????????!!!
even blinds can feel that we are together. my colleague asked me not to fall deep deep with him if he still cover, dont act close with me in front of the public and etc.
my God........... no point to love him whole heartedly.
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God's mercy that i'm short listed for the interview for architecturial course at UTM.the interview is held on next friday. at UTM. which means i have to fly to Johor just for tat stupid and dunno-will-kena-not interview. oh Lord.................. i wonder if me short listed for USM. if i am....die liao....after UTM, USM. la la la la la..... cant take too many unpaid leave ler...early of month d took two lor....x_x
pray for me.
Apr 17, 2008
staff shortage
i love my darling. wahahahahahaha...
he booked me for dating next wed. my off day mer... teeheehee...
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padini is now short of manpower. anyone interested please go for form filling and wait for interview. thanx....
it was supposed to be ian's off day on wed. but was asked to go work. lol.....
so people, have mercy on padini kay? hehe...
thinking of changing my link. any nice name? cause ehren knows my blog...
kinda hard for me to post about my darling. lol...
he booked me for dating next wed. my off day mer... teeheehee...
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padini is now short of manpower. anyone interested please go for form filling and wait for interview. thanx....
it was supposed to be ian's off day on wed. but was asked to go work. lol.....
so people, have mercy on padini kay? hehe...
thinking of changing my link. any nice name? cause ehren knows my blog...
kinda hard for me to post about my darling. lol...
Apr 16, 2008
thank God
\;"yuan fen yao lai de shi hou, shi dang ye dang bu zhu" *read in chinese* haha...
now only i realized how true is tis quote. lol...
i thank God for him.^^
if he's the right one, God will get him to meet my parents one day for sure.
la la la la la la la......
baru know tat if you treat someone as a normal friend in the very beginning, you two wont get together. "ri jiu sheng qing" very lame. *in chinese* wahahahahaha....
now only i realized how true is tis quote. lol...
i thank God for him.^^
if he's the right one, God will get him to meet my parents one day for sure.
la la la la la la la......
baru know tat if you treat someone as a normal friend in the very beginning, you two wont get together. "ri jiu sheng qing" very lame. *in chinese* wahahahahaha....
Apr 15, 2008
untitled
on full shift today.
time passed kinda fast today.
simply dunno why.
remembered last tuesday i nearly dozed off
time passed super slow as well.
can i let go of ylm asap?
through his existance?
might be cruel.
as if i misused him
trying my very best to love him whole heartedly.
am trying.
at least, i try.
but i do feel the guilt at times.
especially when he treated me so well.
yet i treat him normally.
like treating a normal friend
kay,i'm bad.
i'm cruel.
i do admit.
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tomorrow's my off day. mum dated me before him. so, going out with mum instead of him. i feel bad. but it might be better if he meet my mum. he's not ready. no point forcing. just let him be. dont feel like to care much. -____________-"
time passed kinda fast today.
simply dunno why.
remembered last tuesday i nearly dozed off
time passed super slow as well.
can i let go of ylm asap?
through his existance?
might be cruel.
as if i misused him
trying my very best to love him whole heartedly.
am trying.
at least, i try.
but i do feel the guilt at times.
especially when he treated me so well.
yet i treat him normally.
like treating a normal friend
kay,i'm bad.
i'm cruel.
i do admit.
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tomorrow's my off day. mum dated me before him. so, going out with mum instead of him. i feel bad. but it might be better if he meet my mum. he's not ready. no point forcing. just let him be. dont feel like to care much. -____________-"
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